Grief and Dealing

So...here is my second post...apparently I am not good at this cuz it has been awhile. But a lot has happened in the past few months. Besides my own personal tribulations, my best friend had a massive one. This girl means the world to me and we had been out of contact for a few months(thanks to my own stubborness) but i got a text from her on a Saturday night. It was confusing to me a first the way she put it but to the point her finace'/boyfriend had died in a car accident. I didn't know what to do or even to say besides I am sorry! But the moment she told me I think my own heart personally shattered.

It has been almost 2 weeks now since it happened. I have tried to text, call, and even facebook her and I never get any responses. I know she is struggling massively and probably doesn't want to talk. I just don't know what to do at all. We live a couple of hours apart and all I want to do is run and hold her. I can't imagine how she feels. I know she hurts and I want to be there to help her so bad. I have never dealt with death or any of it. I am in a brand new world here.

But I guess the main problem here is that I am afraid my best friend is gone. Will this break her and she will run from anything in the past? Will my best friend ever turn to me again? I guess I took it all for granted. Now what if she gone for good? I can't lose my best friend. I mean I literally talk to this girl about EVERYTHING! I am pretty sure I have let her know I would be there in a moments notice. Does that me she will turn to me though? What if she doesn't have the strength to ask for help?

I have so many thoughts running threw my head these days. I could type for days but it probably wouldn't make any sense but it feels good to get part of it out!